I'm nearly there

Got a new job, trying to get my license, I'm in LOVE with a trolley boy who I've hardly spoken too...blah blah blah.

I'm down to 73.5kg (hw-98kg) thanks to my first fast (3 days. Yeah I'm a failure) I lost 2 kgs haha. I was gonna do another 5 day fast starting on friday morning but on sunday (easter) my granny brought over some eggs for us & she got affended that I wasn't eating them...

long story short- - - I ended the fast & I'll prolly start again today or tomorrow (its 8.30 am now & I haven't eaten anything yet, so I can still start from today)

My next goal is to get to 70kgs. So when I do my fast I'll keep going until I lose the 3.5 kgs.

Wonder if I can lose 3.5kgs in 4 days coz its my birthday on friday. I turn 17 & I don't want to remember it as being the one where I was still fat. 70kg is still fat but it sounds better....blah blah blah its like I can't stop typing.

Wish me luck...wait who am I talking to coz no one even comes to my site anyway. I could say whatever the fuck I wanted to & no one would know...

WHATEVER!! Toodles

week 3 calorie count

25.2.09
Intake.. 350 Outake.. 550 Net.. -200
26.2.09
Intake.. 225 Outake.. 650 Net.. - 325
27.2.09
Intake.. 812 Outake.. 821 Net.. -9
28.2.09
I.. 750 O.. 450 N.. 300
1.3.09
I.. 1070 O.. 600 N.. 470
2.3.09
I.. 800 O.. 600 N.. 300
3.3.09
I..450 O..600 N.. -150

Net cals for week 3 ... 386 calories

**bad compared to last week but my excuse is I had a family get-together & a few outings with friends..promise better next week**

I was down to 79.7kg but yesterday I was force-fed an ice cream & hot chips haha so I'm back up to 81.5 at the moment. I'm really frustrated!!

Laterz princess olive...xoxo

net calories for week 2

18.2.09
Intake- 816 (cals)
Outake- 1166
Net- -350
19.2.09
Intake- 545
Outake- 988
Net- -443
20.2.09
Intake- 1230
Outake- 1150
Net- 80
21.2.09
Intake- 1125
Outake- 1243
Net- -118
22.2.09
Intake- 1080
Outake- 517
Net- 563
23.2.09
Intake- 1175
Outake- 715
Net- 460
24.2.09
Intake- 777
Outake- 707
Net- 70

Net calories for week 2 = 262 cals
Woo!! But could have done better.....until next week folks.....

calories for last week

9.2.09
Intake- 710 cals
Outake- 422 cals
Net- 288 cals
10.2.09
Intake- 700 cals
Outake- 361 cals
Net- 339 cals
11.2.09
Intake- 1170 cals (worst ever since october 08)
Outake- 471 cals
Net- 699 cals
12.2.09
Intake- 840 cals
Outake- 350 cals
Net- 490 cals
13.2.09
Intake- 700 cals
Outake- 400 cals
Net- 300 cals
14.2.09
Intake-1000 cals
Outake- 574 cals
Net- 426 cals
15.2.09
Intake- 875 cals
Outake- 574 cals
Net- 301 cals
NET CALORIES FOR WEEK... **2843**
(My goal is to get this lower every week than the week before)

please stop feeding me

Hi girls, so I'm still on holidays, been 2 weeks now. I still haven't been able to weigh myself **cries** its so sad...

At home my mum doesn't even notice when I don't eat, so its much easier to get away with it. I usually eat 300-600cals a day but when your in a caravan with your nan and pop they see everything you eat (or don't eat) so its really hard. I've been eating around 700-1000cals a day here. Its all the right healthy foods, but still... I don't feel as much in control. Urgghh!!

Princess olive

3 days of torture

Ok so I'm on holidays with my nan & pop (who are pretty cool, & let me do as I please), and we are staying in a caravan park which is fun. The beach is beautiful & is excellent for exercise. & to get to all the shops you have to walk. I measured today that to walk to the end of the shopping village from the front of the caravan park is 300 metres. So I have been walking up & down that road 'window shopping' all day & I've been walking along the beach and across the footbridges over the rivers & I also walked all the way to the end of the caravan park which took me nearly 20 mins each way. Its just a really great place to be active. I wished I brought my bike though.

Although this is all good, I can't stop think about one thing. MY WEIGHT... at home I can barely go an hour without weighing myself. I need to weigh myself to see if I've earnt the right to eat. But here there are NO SCALES. I even walked to the chemist in the next town to see if they had scales that the public can use but they didn't. When we go over to the shopping centre I'll find a shop like target or big w & secretly weigh myself. It is driving me insane.

Before I left home (31.1.09) I weighed 83.5 kgs. Fingers crossed I'll be 78-80 kgs when I get home. When I weigh 78kgs, that means id have lost 20kgs. AWESOME!! Then I only have to loose another 20 kgs & I think I'll say good bye to ANA, we'll see... I love ANA!! She is so good to me, even tho I often let her down...

I'm off now to have a shower & wash my hair...urghhh!! I'll have to look at my revolting body!!

Night...stay strong, starve on, I'm sick of fucking eating but they just keep feeding me. UURRGGGHHH!!!!!

Salt Water Flush Wussy

So id planned to do a salt water flush this morning, I took about 6 mouthfuls in and swallowed them as quickly as possible but you are supposed to drink a Litre of salt water. It was sooo fucking gross, I nearly spewed. But I ended up tipping it all out in my garden haha. So much for that idea. Its ashame it taste so bad coz I would like to have the benefits that it delivers (if u can actually drink all 4 cups. Eww!!)

Today is a pretty busy day
**now, I'm driving to 'good guys' to get my granny a late xmas present opps!!
**lunch, I'm going to granny's house for bbq lunch, which means i'll have to eat. Eugghh! I'll only have a little bit.
**when I get home I have to shave my legs, wax my eyebrows, wash ALL of my clothes, dry them & pack them
**clean my room & my bathroom, REALLY good coz other people will be in them while I'm on holidays. Woot!! ;)

Wish me luck, I'll be up late tonight... xoxo

complete the sentence...

FOOD...
-- makes me miserable
-- is a stupid thing to be thinking about 24/7
-- isn't even worth it
-- is like art, to be looked at not eaten
-- isn't as tasty as I used to THINK it was
-- is a lot more filling these days
-- is something I wish I could avoid
-- is what we eat to live but we shouldn't live to eat it
-- makes me want to scream
-- should be given to the poor people in poor countries, who actually need it
-- works on you from the inside out to make you fat, ugly & depressed
-- controls peoples lives
-- that taste good is trying to kill you
-- that is processed is so uneccessary
-- eurghh!! There's so much of it, its everywhere
-- is fucking stupid!!

I'm such a FAT cow

Omg!! I had a really good morning & a excellent evening until...(dah dah dah duh) mum told me to make dinner. Which is fine I actually like cooking...but the way I see it - - food is like art, to be looked at not eaten - - yeah I made pork chops & vegies (what a difficult dinner!!)

anyways I knew id have to eat so I got the littlest chop out, cut off all the fat & weighed it...182g. Everyone elses weighed like 300g & my step dad even had FUCKING 2!! Eww!!

After id eaten all of it I had a look at how much the bone weighed...32g - - which means my chop weighed 150g - - I didn't want or think I could eat it all but I did...arghhhh!! & I had like 2 tablespoons of vegies.

If id know beforehand how many cals were in those little fucking pork chops I would of "accidently" dropped it on the floor. There is like 300cals in 125g. FUCK ME!!

I only consumed 193cals today + like 400cals for my dinner that tasted foul anyway = 593cals

I was 83.7kgs this morning but before dinner I was 83.3kgs wooooo!!! But we'll see what that fucking pork does to me.

I plan to do a salt water flush in the morning, I've never done it before & I've got a family bbq on tomorrow so I don't want to be in the toilet all the time...i ll make up my mind in the morning...

Night ya'll...xoxo

January pic

January 09- 84kgs

December pic

December 08- 88kgs

what my body looks like now

this is January's photos













xoxo pRiNcEsS.oLiVe xoxo

I'm still alive...haha

I actually forgot I had this blog thingy...that's how busy I've been...well not really. But there has been good shows on tv.

Hi everyone...

As of last night I am officially unemployed, it feels awesome!! Hehe. Also I reackon I'll loose heaps more weight now that I don't work there coz its a food shop & yeah id like eat the whole time I was there.

Also I quit school since my last post opps!!

As of yesterday morning I weighed...brace yourself...83.7kg, which means I've lost 14.3kg since october!! I'm really proud of myself coz I've never been able to do it before.

So...on monday the 1st of feb, ima going on holidays with my nan & pop (who r really cool by the way) for 3 weeks. There is a mad ass beach, a river that is soo clear its not funny & also to get to the shops u HAVE to walk. I went there for a WEEK in october & I lost like 3 kgs so I hope I'll loose heaps again this time.

But my nan loves food!! My whole family does. Its really hard not eating when u r in a caravan with your family. Coz they see everything & I can't just say 'oh no thank you I bought something at the shop' coz then she would be affended. And they eat a lot too!! I'm really worried I'll gain. If I don't eat then I bet she will accuse me of having an ED.

I know when I see her she'll ask me how my weightloss is going & I'll just say 'ohh umm I'm not really worried about it anymore, I just eat when I'm hungry & stop when I'm full' half truth, half lie.

Anyway I'll probably post while I'm holidays coz I might get a bit bored sometimes...please wish me luck, I don't want to gain while on my holidays...that would be such a bummer!!